My Unknown Strength by Katlego Moeng

Author:Katlego Moeng
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: BookTrail Agency LLC
Published: 2022-12-15T00:00:00+00:00

Learn, let go, and heal

chapter nine

In 2020 around October, I lost my first high school best friend. I felt like my world was falling apart. It was a very difficult time for me. It felt like my life was falling apart; we had been friends since grade eight. We used to do everything together. We had our own YouTube channel. We would wear matching outfits. Our parents began to be friends. We went from friends to best friends and sisters instantly. I didn’t have any friends at school besides her. We spent most of our time together. We weren’t perfect behind closed doors; just like any other friendship, we would fight and have arguments.

Until October 2020, things took a left turn. I was against something we were doing, and I didn’t feel comfortable doing it. I felt like I had forgotten my morals. I addressed the matter, and I acknowledged that I wasn’t polite. I was so disgusted that my best friend got angry at me for not riding along with something incorrect.

The following day, we separated, which hurt me a lot. I was not friends with anyone. I became a loner. I had to spend most breaks alone; I felt alienated. I lost trust and didn’t want any new friends. It was hard to function without them because I was so used to having them think for me. I was so used to following specific routines with them. There were days I felt sick and often emotional. I couldn’t focus in class. I would cry myself to sleep most of the time. I was often sleepy, and very negative about everything. I was hurt; I opened up to everyone because I was so tired of keeping it in. I was tired of acting tough and hiding my vulnerable side. A lot of people rejoiced when they saw me falling apart. It was a time of celebration for them. They thought I would never bounce back.

I spoke to my mom, sister, and a close friend. They gave me advice and guided me through the journey. A close friend told me that whatever energy you give to the universe, it will give it back. It will give you more reasons to give off that energy. She told me how I should try being more positive, and the universe will return the positive energy. I followed the advice she gave me. It was hard being positive about everything. I kept a smile on my face the entire day. I motivated myself and prayed for strength. I told myself I was going to heal. I got motivating quotes and blocked negativity in every possible way.

During that day, I received the good news; that’s when the idea of starting she is power came up. I was filled with joy. I thought to myself, she was right! I carried on being optimistic about everything. I tried to socialise with different people and got to know other people. I was proud of myself because I was finally bouncing back and getting out of the dark hole.

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